One of my latest wire sculptured necklaces. Sterling silver encasing a gorgeous turquoise gemstone.
I'm in a fab mood.
It seems like there is a possibility of becoming a member of the local arts council, and in doing so, will be able to recieve mentoring, funding and contacts e.g for exhibitions etc
I have to apply, before the end of the year, and if the panel of judges think I'm worthy, I become a member and get one to one mentoring within the design community!
Also along the same lines, there is a gallery I am going to apply for, which has a highly regarded rep.
There are also a few Events I qualify to apply for based in London, at the heart of the creative design scene
So although nothing has actually happened LOL, I am thrilled and motivated by the idea of what could happen. I feel really inspired to come up with some amazing pieces, before the application deadlines, so that I can include them with the forms
I have finished some satisfying pieces of art, and am having a great weekend.It is also coming up to the 2 year milestone of living as a multiple personality, so its a good time for contemplation
6 years ago, was the courtcase, and it proved to be one trauma too many, and my split personality started to really manifest, and disrupt my daily life. Before that I just did odd things, and seemed very forgetful, and seemed to be able to have extreme changes in my personality which were adaptations to my environments. You know, work mode, socialising mode, quiet mode ... which everyone seems to do, don't they?
Over the six years my personality defragmented, and came to a head 2 years ago. All my hair had been cut off, I was losing time, sleeping with the cats during the day, and not remembering conversations and whole passages of time.
Then, my child personalities fully emerged. whole and different, and outside observers commented that I seemed possessed or something LOL. I was gone...
Now, I'm much better, it doesn't feel like a crisis, but I have learnt to live with it. There have been a lot of changes though, as a consequence.
I know myself, better as a whole. I have been forced to face up to things, memories, events, bad lifestyle behaviours etc. I feel more at peace with myself. Being split ironically helps me get more out of my life, and I am less repressed.
I can be child like, and fully experience the joy and excitement of that.When I am myself, I am so much calmer, and pragmatic than before. I used to think I was an anxious person, but I'm not...my child selves are, and separating all that out has been weirdly liberating. I can calm them down more effectively from the inside too
Art therapy, has been a Godsend. I cannot get through the days without it.Being creative keeps me on an even keel. You are supposed to be able to express your inner selves non verbally through art, and in turn this can be used as a diagnostic tool. I have no idea what my art shows, but I know, I am lost without it
I have reconnected with significant people from my past. This has been amazing. I was so bottled up before, and I could not possibly see a time when I could cope with being "normal" with these people, but I can now
Me and Mum, have a great relationship now, very honest at times, but full of laughter and light. This has been a wonderful blessing.She has become one of best friends, and is very supportive and protective over me - and it feels real, not fake
Losing my job. I spent years in training and finally working as a doctor, and now, it isn't safe for me to work with people really.
To be frank, the only thing I miss is the job security, and validation I derived from that job. I was really good at the job, but it did take over my life at times
Dealing with the ignorance and narrowmindedness of others has been the biggest downer. I've discovered things about my sister, that have been hard to swallow. She is a very angry person, when it comes to me, and she believes my mental illness will harm her child to be.Now, she pretends I don't exist, and does not want Mum to mention me. I don't know how to deal with that kind of thing, its still a learning curve
I have set up my shop website, and then found it killed my creativity for months. I couldn't work out if it was merely exhaustion or what?
As soon as the website was done, I decided, that I really wanted to sell my jewellery in person in the public domain LOL, talk about doing a 180!
Over the last couple of months or so, I have felt very unsettled and disheartened about the whole thing.You know, am I mentally well enough to be out there? Am I good enough? etc
I let my creativity off the leash, and found myself immersed in sculpting, very intricate, and frankly expensive arty jewellery pieces. This is what I am happiest doing. So I have decided to participate in craft and design shows, and sell my high end arty stuff, to the public selectively, throughout the year. Then annually I'll do a big pre christmas push with at christmas fairs etc, with more affordable items.
I am hoping that way, the christmas run will pay for my creative needs LOL.Anyway, thats the plan for now...how it will pan out, who knows?!
Sorry for the long monster post. It's a one off, thanks for reading this far :)
I was inspired by the idea of enchanted mirrors and dreamscapes. The after effects of watching Inception and BBC's Sherlock Holmes LOL
Being prone to dissociating (like a deep daydream, not quite awake) regularly, I found it interesting that Sherlock does a similar thing, to be able to think objectively, and to focus. And in the movie Inception, which was quite trippy in places, the idea of dreamscapes was everywhere, and I felt that Cobb and Fisher, went through their own form of therapy, with the team literally marching through and unlocking parts of the subconcious mind
So, I created some vividly coloured dreamscapes, of some of my favourite mood colours, and captured them in enchanted looking-glasses, as in Alice in Wonderland
Hope you like them :)
They are made from fine silver and handpainted polymer clay, and resin gloss. I layed a pale gold patina on the silver, too, to add to the enchantment :)
In the face of familial rejection, and other personal dramas, I throw myself into creativity. It's the only way to stay sane, in a manner of speaking
I've always wanted to really sculpt in precious metal clay, and this is the first time I have managed it. This started literally as a couple of lumps of clay and some wires. The texturing was achieved using micro carving tools.
This piece is a little natural wonder in it's own right. Shining brightly in the dark.
Art therapy has always been a lifeline for my mental wellbeing. I was mainly into water colour painting and amateur sculpting in mixed media.
As it happens in life, major personal events forced me to change careers, and I discovered jewellery making, as a creative outlet
Now it is my main passion, I enjoy exploring all forms and techniques in jewellery making, and am still learning. People close to me have encouraged me to start a shop which is linked above.I'm aiming to carve out a new career doing something I truly love
Hope you like my pieces :)
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I blog mainly about inspirations for jewellery making.It is a personal blog, as well as an accompaniment to the online shop
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In store now....
This is one of the featured collections
All of them are shown here at the Gallery